Walking in the Dark

 I’ve been reading an article re can you trust the future you will still have the same values and beliefs and ideals as you do now.    And though I follow the logic of the author and have heard this question before, I feel a through line in my evolution this lifetime.    I was a teenager when I came up with “you’re always growing but you don’t know what to, but if you pay attention you can sense when you’re on the path or off. The point is to pay attention to that ability to sense the “furthering the action”  of a life choice  rather than the content.   The content will change but my ability to sense my Magnetic True North has been my  goal and gift throughout my life     

So, yes I do trust Future me   I don’t know what she’ll be doing or feeling or even valuing , but she will still be searching for a way to be in the world which feels honest, real and expanding what is good in the world     not sure if that is pretentious? don’t think so.  When I think back on my “stringing pearls” moments of deep awareness, all of them feel like they still come from the deepest part of a consistent me.    Content will change; I may invest energy in fruitless or even destructive ventures, but nothing is wasted if I learn that No, that’s not for me.   I don’t even hope that all my choices during these next years are perfectly fruitful and satisfying.  I just want to be fully engaged with whatever I do and keep my nose to the air re is it the next right step?   I’m walking in the dark. Sometimes it’s easier to sense things in the dark