I’m looking for theme music of this new era. I remember the music of my starting college in Chicago music, Bill Evans, Joni Mitchel, John Coltrane and Smokey Robinson ….. and my roommates Donovan. Listening to any of it takes me back to how I felt in that crazy altered state of 1967 The then there’s the music as I had kids Little White Duck and Free to Be You and Me. And the pain of the divorce era. Meg Christian and Turning It Over. The falling in love with Gil music was Jan Garbarek and Keith Jarret and all the disco of the 80s. David’s prison time Fat Freddy’s Drop still brings tears to my eyes. And then all the Latin music that Gil soaked me in I still remember the arousal of Mi Tierra and Los Van Van the Koln concert of our wedding. During the crazy intense days toward the end of his life Cassandra Wilson’s Shelter From the Storm made me cry on repeat. Also too weird that song sometimes no kidding would just start playing on my computer or in the car without my putting it on or even having listened to it in weeks!!
After he died I sort of stopped listening to music. Not sure why. Some of it was I’d been so overstimulated all those years of crisis. That I wanted to fall into no sensation. Some of it was that Gil had been my source for new music and now that pipe line had dried up. I listened to my old music and the Gil Memorial music until it stopped making me tear. And then it was silence
Not all silence is created equal
Now in my new space, attempting new habits I want to find some new music that my body can associate with this new era. I need new Theme music. Something lyrical but with some salty sour chords something that resolves with hopeful keys. Something with a drive that gets into a grove that holds I feel a little like West Side Story with “Something’s Coming”. Theme music can’t be prescribed it’ll have to come out of left field and grab me! Or else slip into my dreams on repeat. I just need to listen for it and recognize it’s resonance
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