It’s So Tempting

 It’s so tempting to fill the void  rather than sitting with the emptiness.   I chose this , this lack of things that must be done so that I could be bored, be restless be Hungry for ? *what I don’t know yet??                TV is a comfort particularly at the end of a hard day but it’s too easy to fill the time and space I worked so hard to carve out for myself.  Perhaps I need to build in more emptiness, limit my tv or mindless reading of NYT articles I’m not really that interested.  I know when I’m doing it.   No need to yell at myself.  I just need to acknowledge the urge to fill the void   And resist, rest   And see what emerges